Very Cute Pet Photos

Here are some very cute pet photos sent to me by my friend, Dawn:

Gigi: the boston terrier: sooo cute!!

I love seeing an animal interacting with other animals like this.

Bert: Soo tiny. wow :)

Wow. Look at her eyes!!!!

Bert reminds me of the kitten, jiji from a catoon movie, Kiki, the delivery service:

Here is a photo that was apparently on a magazine, but check this out. VERY CUTE!!

Thanks very much for sharing, Dawn!!

I baked some sweets to bring with me to school as an afternoon snack. My attempt in making some corn muffins turned out like this:

I made loads of corn muffins...hmm

It turned out pretty good! But thenext time I make them, I want to make it with a little less sugar and more and MORE corn powder. :)

I love our pet, Brian!!/My Old Drawings

After coming back from my driving lessons, I played with our family pet, Brian. :) When I returned to Japan, he was one pouty brat, since none of my family members (my parents and my grandma) make time to play with him. He used to always give me this "what you looking at? you are not going to play with me anyway, are you?" look. LOL But I have started taking at least 15 minutes of my day every day to

share good time with each other. He has turned into a rather big stupid dog (due to none of us disciplining him), so it is dangerous to take him for a walk :(
Consequently, his exercise routine has been limited to the time that I played with him with a ball and hide and seek around his house.

Anyhow, take a look at below photos of me and Brian. He is such a cute and very HONEST dog. I can tell what he is thinking just looking at his facial expressions. I bet all of youcan also tell what he is up to.. haha

Brian awaits for my arrival sitting on this proper posture. He thinks I am his "favorite" boss, cause I give him some snack (beef jerkies). My dad is officially his boss, but Brian lacks smiles when he is around, cause he can be such a spartan. LOL

Check out how happy Brian looks as I continue to pet him. awww :)

Andlook at this one! Brian is soo spoiled here. hehe

Prettycute huh? Well, if any of you have sweet animal photos, please share with me :) Oh speaking of sharing a photo, I have a quite XXX rated pic to share with you. LOL

Well, we have Hichi fuku jin that are seven Gods which carry happiness for us. They are very famous as civilian belief from Muromati period. The image of them is as shown asbelow.

Below photo was sent to me via my school friend, Ai-chan.
Oh god, I was hesitated to post this, but I would like you guys to see how XXX this photo looks. Can you believe a statue like this is actually built in public here in Japan ? I mean...... wow. LOL

I think it is one of the gods called Hotei-sama. Check out how proud he looks with his huge XXX. Apparently (according to Ai-chan, petting the unit three times gives you good luck. So if you wanna be lucky, don't hesitate to touch on the unit. Just make sure no one is watching or behindyou when you do it though. LOL)

While looking for some documents tonite, I found these color copies of some drawings that I did almost 5 years ago. Looking at these images reminded me of the phase of my life back then, and it was quite refreshing to me, so I decided to take photos of the copies and post them herein my blog :)

Belowdrawing was dedicated for a former co-worker (tibetian lady) who was gifted with a new life. I gave her this piece wishing her for a healthy pregnancy and safe delivery of her child.

"EnergyCommunication "

"Mein the city" -I was living in Down Town, Toronto back then...

"Alchemist The Apple"-Dedicated to the book, "Alchemist" By Paulo Coelho:

I used to get down quite frequently wondering where I belonged and how I could live much fulfilling life back then....I used to shed some tears while taking a warm bath, so I drew a picture reflecting such moments:

"I turn into a snake in a presence of you"

That's all the images that I have with me.I did a ton more, but gave them all to my friends... :) so this is it for now. :) peace

Just a quick update on my HEART

I had no drivin lesson today, so I had an opportunity to go and see a heart specialist today finally.

Well, I appear to have an abnormal cardiac rhythm (irregular heart beat). But this is nothing new, cause whenever I had my heart checked up when I was young, the doctor always indicated this problem to me. But for the past over 20 years, I had absolutely no problem running around in the play ground swinging my baseball bat chasing after some neighbor kids (joke) or running until I get no sensation on my feet for over 3 hrs and half (true story)...so not sure why this is becoming a problem right now.

The doctor told me that I get an extra beat between the normal heart rhythm, and this can cause me to have a heart pain especially when I am under great stress mentally and physically.

Thankfully this irregular beat is caused from the upper left chamber. What this means is that it is not like insufficient oxygen will be delivered to the rest of my body when this happens; therefore, it does not risk my life even when I continue to experience this. But since it causes such acute heart pain, I may be suggested to take a medication to deal with this problem. But before he gives me some medication, we agree to monitor my heart activity for 24 hours on May 6th to determine the cause of my problem. :)

It sort of sounds serious, but really, I am doing well right now. The doctor said that I should try to get good nite sleep (enough sleep) and relax more. Thinking back, my heart pain started when I was averaging 3-4 hrs of sleep last fall, so this sort of makes sense. LOL

So I plan on going to bed early tonite, waking up early tomorrow to go to the gym before getting my 2 hr driving lesson. I made a few more earrings today, so if you were interested, please check them out: Click here. Oh, and I was able to cook some food the past couple of days, so I updated my cooking page as well. Talk to you later :) Peace

On the way to expanding my gang crew on the road...

That's right. I had a temp permit driving test in the morning. Well, this time, I tried my hardest to "relax" before driving, and I thankfully passed it! Woo hoo! I did not get the heart ache, so I was super happy! Yay!

Then I was allowed to write the written test (to officially get my temp permit) finally! I scored the second highest (sorry I wasn't the highest. boo) and got my temp permit today! :)

So after that, I went on the road to practice driving for 2 hours, which was full of FUN :) So today's driving experience finally gave me a reason to gain much confidence in my driving. Thanks to those of you who cheered me up on this mission. I thought of you while taking the test, and I think that all the energy that I got from yous helped me loads :) thanks!!!!

phew. I feel I am going to have a good nite's sleep tonite. I am going to wake up early tomorrow to go to the gym before going to school tomorrow, so I am going to end my blog here this time. Hope you are blessed with great energy in your life :) Massive Huggle Attack! :)

Driving Lesson after 5 Days of not driving.

I went to school today after 5 days of not driving.

My 50 minutes lesson went well. I practiced lots at the zig zac section of the school driving route (crank). I did all right, and my teacher said that I need to relax and be less nervous,cause my driving is just *fine*!! lol

So I think I need to smoke some weed before my test tomorrow, but alas, I am not a pot head, so I do not own any glass with me. haha~ (never was into the whole smoking thing anyway).

Well, it was still 1pm when I came home, so I designed and created a few earrings taking advantage of the early afternoon spare time. So if any of you were interested, please view my accessory page.

By the way, I was listening to "Wicked is the music" by Crazy Penis and Jeremy Ellis Interview by Ange while making the earrings. That sort of explains the nature of the created designs
and names :) I was happy with my creativity though :)

I have my driving lesson test (again) tomorrow morning. I truly hope that the weather will be great and I will not get too nervous taking the test though. Wish me good luck :) Peace

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Taking it Easy/Full Version of Lemon Gas

I was supposed to go to the driver's license school for a 1hr lesson today, but since I will have to wait 1 more day for the temp permit driving test on Monday (no test on Sundays), I decided to re-schedulemy lesson for Monday and taking the test on Tuesday.

Plus, I felt super tired when I woke up, so I felt that I would not be able to take the lesson with full attention, which will be a great waste of money, now that 1 hr lesson costs me extra 50 dollars. Rightttt. 50 dollars for a 1 hr lesson (to be exact, 50 minutes). How nice of them to charge me 10 dollars for every 10 minutes of driving in the silly school driving circuit. Sigh. And it costs another 50 dollars whenever I re-take the test. So I am already asked to spend 200 dollars on top of the initial bill (over 2300 dollars for the freaking programthat does not allow me to practice driving much).

Anyway, enough rants here. Let's talk of SPRING again :)

I woke up to a thoughtful email from a very thoughtful and FUNKY friend of mine, who cheered me up on my current situation by sending me an encouraging visual message. It was very thoughtful of her, and reading the message surely brought me a sense of comfort. Also, I got to see a funny clip sent by her, which was very funny to see. Just something that I truly needed. So here, I want to share with you too. hehe

In the morning after preparing breakfast for my family, I was told from my grandma how pretty the front garden looked now that all the tulips are blooming. I took a photo of it so here it is:

Here is a photo of cherry bloosom tree (although not the best shot) in my neighborhood:

Here is a photo of cherry bloosom tree (different kind) in the garden by the ponds:

ThenI noticed how a migrating bird couple decided to rest in one of the ponds at my house.

So cute eh? Apparently, they come to our pond every year to lay eggs.

My dad told me that the stupid crow (the mother of my dad's pet) ate the egg of a migrating bird mama laste year, so that was also why he decided to keep her own baby in a cage as a revenge (wheee). Recently, the mother of my dad's pet makes frequent visits, eating the food
that we feed the baby pet. LOL My dad said that he will eventually catch the mother crow and take both the mother and the pet somewhere really REALLY far away from our house, so that they will never come back to our neighborhood. LOL Right, my dad has this tendency to revenge animals, which I do not think is the most positive attitude to have. He has brought a mischevious cat that ate some carps that we keep in the pond (for restaurant business) to somewhere far away too.

Changeof subject here. Today was Saturday. What it means is that I get to see my favorite tv commercial when I watch this particular tv show.

So I prepared myself to capture the commercial in the digi-cam. Here is the full version of: Lemon Gas where a little girl raps with agas service person. LOL

By the way, this is an example of my obento box that I bring to my driver's license school. You may think that it is not that much, but that isbecause I eat a ton of chocolate, cookies and senbe (rice crackers).

Gotta cut back on the junk food though, now that I wonder if the sweet bingeactually has some impact on my heart.

I gotta work tomorrow, so I shall get some rest now. Hope to catch up on some mails with my friends. Sorry :( if you were wondering whata lazy bum I am..will get back to you soon!!!!!!!!!! :D

P.S. Currently chilling listening to "the wickedis music" by Crazy Penis. Thanks so much, Dawn!!!

l be a long serious blog update today....

Wow, it has been super busy that I do not know where to start catching up on my blog entry. LOL

Well, let's start with my driver's license school story.

I have failed my driving test to get a temp permit TWICE.

That's right. You heard it RIGHT. I am such a LOSER.

I do not know what's wrong with me, cause I can drive with no problem at all when I practice. But when it comes to a test, I can't. Well, here is my serious confession to those who are reading my blog: I appear to get a panic attack of some sort where I feel such sharp pain over my chest (especially pain on my heart) frequently whenever I feel stressed/nervous/pressured and fearful.

I have not had this kind of symptom for the past few months, but the chest pain has gotten quite frequent to the point that I have decided to see a doctor as soon as my schedule allows me to do so.

I wonder if this is a part of PTSD. I also fear myself for having "angina pectoris" -a heart disease where the heart gets tightened due to a lack of oxygen due to a hardcore exercises/stress. Some of you who know me well may know me for loving going for a long run. Ironically I do not get the chest pain during/after the long run. But I definitely do get the pain when I feel tensed/pressured/nervous/stressed. I was doing okay with the PTSD in the past few months, so I am scared as hell to imagine how I will have to continue dealing with such a thing as this...

Well, to be honest, I think I am under a great stress right now.

I will need to freaking return to Canada next month, but I have no CLUE where to return, what sort of job to get (or will be given to me), and very concerned with my needs to return N. America.

While I am occupied with this pressure to make a decision, my mom has not been doing well at all for the past 2 weeks or so that her attitude/mood have affected all of us in the family. The great influence has been on my father, who has always tried so hard to keep good mental status of my mom. But recently, my dad was also told from a doctor how he is having a problem with his heart. So he is freaking out with his own health issue as well.

But my mom does not understand how her mood affects everyone in the house negatively, so she continues to be moody/grumpy. This of course makes my dad very irritated, and affects both myself and my grand mother. I am able to keep a sense of peace and calm attitude if I am alone, but I am not enjoying the environment where there are full of sighs and complaints. Fu*k, do something about it, if you have the guts to complain, you think right? Well, we are in a situation where good communication can not be obtained due to my mom's mental health. So all of us continue to be affected by it.

I have much more things to say, but I am freaking so angry at people (including me) that takes things for granted. I am taking a peaceful life environment for granted, so when a situation like this arises, I feel upset. I want to keep a sense of peace within me, but if I feel such pain over my heart, it is difficult to keep peaceful mental attitude. Anyway, I really REALLY need to have a alone time, so I am going to upstairs in my room to rest a little. I will have to work during the weekend, and will have no time to study for my driver's license temp permit written exam, so I need to make time for that too. Okay. Thank my life. Thank my ability to think. and Thank for the little break I got. (I am pissed off, as you maybe able to tell, but gotta keep positive attitude and strength within me, for god's sake!)

I am thankful for what I have though :) hehe

P. S. my work assignment to instruct a new employee training for an engineering company went well. I am very relieved that that is over now. phew. It was cool and very wonderful seeing my former co-workers at the university though. Lucky me :)