The past few weeks were spent mostly taking care of my new career responsibility as an event/catering manager for a company that owns two separate Japanese restaurants.
Tonite, I was supposed to go out, but I came home disappointed as I was stuck at work until midnite and knowing that I would not be able to wake up early enough if I did make the decision to still go out and do *my thing* tonite....
Looking at my work schedule, I do not know when I would get to go and check out some sweet deephouse music next (or yet alone the opportunity to take a complete off for a day or two).
Although I love what I do for my work and I am blessed with the people that I work with, when I start looking into other needs that I have in my life, I find myself questioning: "what is it that I need in my life? What do I need to fulfill myself as a person????"
You know, my daily work out doing my cardio absolutely brings me a clear realization that I am given this life again. I often gain feelings such as "I am given another chance (a day) to live. How would I want live my day to fullfill it so that I will be happy eternally to go into the next world when my time comes??"
And usually, I have a wonderful day throughout the day and I forget how physically tired I maybe after having a long hour work, because everything that is given to me is ultimately a gift, and I must appreciate it fully (opportunity to work, opportunity to share my skills, ideas, creativities, initiatives etc).
But when I become alone, elements that are not fulfilled come into my mind wondering and questioning me when I will spend the energy to fulfill their needs. Maybe because I have covered such long hour work since I had my day off last time...
I miss spending time with my friends.
I miss having the time to go to kensington market and china town for my cooking.
I miss having hearty meal from in the morning.
I miss eating nice brunch with my roommate on the weekend.
I miss meeting up with my friends to chat and share whatever goes around in our minds and endlessly talk about some theories on energy/spirituality etc.
I miss.....feeling that I belong to the nature around me.
I think that I need to learn how to appreciate the given moment of time in each different picture slide that I live in. I could still appreciate my time riding on my bike from and to the gym as I pass through a road where you have humoungus trees on each side of the road, even it is for a short period of time.
I wished that I could make some arrangements with friends early in advance, so that I could manage to see them more frequently than letting a week go by without seeing any of them :(
But due to the nature of my work (a role in the management group), I must prioritize the emergent needs there, and it seems as though there is always a new business coming along our way and I would need to spend extra hours investigating on the background, objective, strategy, statistics etc...staring on the computer for hours and hours, and this is amazing career wise, but when I look into my needs to spend my friends, I become......sad..
My friends are my family.
I need to see them.
I need to spend time with them.
I need to share some smiles/laughters/bright ideas/insightful perspectives/positive energy with them.
Sigh. you know, and yes, I know I am going into the circle here, but I think I need to spend time with my friends.
Ange- I miss you girl. Where the hell are you when I need to go dancing or urban outfitters to try on some skirts in the change rooms together????? :(
****cool female friends into GOOD deephouse music in demand....I need to have some girly time right now!!!!!******
DAWN-I so wisheddd you were in T-dot! (or myself in Vancouver).
I miss my sisters--------it would be kinda dope if I could see them even they may tease me sometime for my geekyness.. LOL
TOMO- I wish to see you freaking SOOOOOOOONNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!
Saturday, October 01, 2005
Friday, September 30, 2005
LLORCA-NEWCOMER
The music that I am crazy about:
http://www.soulmanifesto.net/audio/llorca%20-%20newcomer/01 - The novel Sound.mp3
http://www.soulmanifesto.net/audio/llorca%20-%20newcomer/02 - Indigo Blues.mp3
http://www.soulmanifesto.net/audio/llorca%20-%20newcomer/03 - Lights Behind Windows.mp3
http://www.soulmanifesto.net/audio/llorca%20-%20newcomer/04 - I Cry (Original Mix).mp3
http://www.soulmanifesto.net/audio/llorca%20-%20newcomer/05 - Any How.mp3
http://www.soulmanifesto.net/audio/llorca%20-%20newcomer/06 - True To Me.mp3
http://www.soulmanifesto.net/audio/llorca%20-%20newcomer/07 - Lalo Caught Me Dancing.mp3
http://www.soulmanifesto.net/audio/llorca%20-%20newcomer/08 - My Precious Thing.mp3
http://www.soulmanifesto.net/audio/llorca%20-%20newcomer/09 - The End.mp3
ENJOY :) and yay, I am excited about going out dancing to check out dirty dale tonite!! hehehehehe
God bless personal time! :)
Monday, September 26, 2005
my day off on sunday...sweet
i had a pretty productive day today.
i woke up feeling quite refreshed, although I stayed up quite late the nite before dancing up in a storm at a local club.
i had a quick hunger fix and proceeded to take a bath and clean the entire apartment. Although I took care of my laundry, I decided to wash some stuff more (kitchen mattress etc) today.
then later at 3pm-ish, I got on my bike andwent to shopping at winners and zara-two of my favorite shopping spots. Then I came back home early enough to get to the gym at 5pm for my 1 hr and 45 minutes work out :) I listened to a mix by a person known to me, and what can I say? wow, it sounds very groovy! lol no wonder his production work is on the Osunlade label right now (remix). I had a great cardio listening to great music :) and it always makes me happy to have a good cardio session for the day.
Then I went to a grocery shopping, where it was flooded by humans! lol Some sections/shelves at the store were emptied and had no inventory. Had no idea how so many people decided to rush into the store, but oh well, i got my produce there and came home and made some beef teriyaki stir-fry with loads of mushroom...hmmm tasted very yummy.
I then marinated some chicken to make orange chicken tomorrow, and organized my room a little. I did over 3 hours worth of work at my desk to prepare myself for the upcoming week. It will be busy! and I am excited to know how my preparation will pay off :)
It is my grandma's b-day today in Japan (Sep 25, 2005), so I stayed up late to give her a call on her mobile. She was very surprised to hear my voice, and initially did not believe that it was me. LOL but she sounded very happy that I called her. We talked about my new job, and her life there in Japan. She asked me how my best friend has been doing, so yeah, if you were reading this, you should know that there is someone (from my family) that is thinking of you ;) LOL
It is quite late already now, so I will go and sleep now, but I wanted to update my journal to cerebrate my productive day that I had today..It's such an awesome feeling when you get to complete all the things that you wanted to do during the given hour in the day though :) woo hoo. I will try to have productive work flow this coming week also.
peace and love always, kumi
i woke up feeling quite refreshed, although I stayed up quite late the nite before dancing up in a storm at a local club.
i had a quick hunger fix and proceeded to take a bath and clean the entire apartment. Although I took care of my laundry, I decided to wash some stuff more (kitchen mattress etc) today.
then later at 3pm-ish, I got on my bike andwent to shopping at winners and zara-two of my favorite shopping spots. Then I came back home early enough to get to the gym at 5pm for my 1 hr and 45 minutes work out :) I listened to a mix by a person known to me, and what can I say? wow, it sounds very groovy! lol no wonder his production work is on the Osunlade label right now (remix). I had a great cardio listening to great music :) and it always makes me happy to have a good cardio session for the day.
Then I went to a grocery shopping, where it was flooded by humans! lol Some sections/shelves at the store were emptied and had no inventory. Had no idea how so many people decided to rush into the store, but oh well, i got my produce there and came home and made some beef teriyaki stir-fry with loads of mushroom...hmmm tasted very yummy.
I then marinated some chicken to make orange chicken tomorrow, and organized my room a little. I did over 3 hours worth of work at my desk to prepare myself for the upcoming week. It will be busy! and I am excited to know how my preparation will pay off :)
It is my grandma's b-day today in Japan (Sep 25, 2005), so I stayed up late to give her a call on her mobile. She was very surprised to hear my voice, and initially did not believe that it was me. LOL but she sounded very happy that I called her. We talked about my new job, and her life there in Japan. She asked me how my best friend has been doing, so yeah, if you were reading this, you should know that there is someone (from my family) that is thinking of you ;) LOL
It is quite late already now, so I will go and sleep now, but I wanted to update my journal to cerebrate my productive day that I had today..It's such an awesome feeling when you get to complete all the things that you wanted to do during the given hour in the day though :) woo hoo. I will try to have productive work flow this coming week also.
peace and love always, kumi
Sunday, September 25, 2005
phew
well, some of you might have been wondering where the hell I had disappeared to.. it is not that i did not want to update my blog and it's just that i did not even had the time to do it~~~~~
some may say: "oh, that's something new" LOL
but it's for real that I was working for like 60-70 hrs/week in the past two weeks without normal weekend off. For a person that used to work in the 9-5 office environment, the nature of my work sort of shook me a little at first, cause I had no idea when I would be able to get sometime off even to take care of some personal things, but now it's been over two weeks since I started my job, I got kind of used to it now...
This weekend, luckily, there were no events happening, so I could sleep in a little this morning, and went into work for a meeting with my boss and the executive chef at the restaurant. My boss kindly gave me a lift home, so I went to do some laundry (the laundry machine at my apartment sucks) in my neighborhood, grabbed a piece of pizza for my dinner (meah) and came home deciding whether to go out dancing or not.
Well, it has been way tooooooooo long since I went out for dancing, so I said to myself: "if not tonite, I wouldnot even know when I could go out next", and called up my dancing all nite long buddy and we went out. I thought that John Beltran was in the house tonite, but a phone call from my friend proved me wrong when he said: "I do not think this is the place that we were supposed to be tonite". I was about to leave the place and was having my soho and orange juice as I talked to him, and did a quick research once again. Dang. It was YESTERDAY and not on SATURDAY NITE>>>>> :(((((( I felt so aweful learning that my friend already paid to get inside at this club that was having top british pop of some sort. I offered to pay him back the cost and for the cover to the place that we both agreed to go. So we went out to footwork, where some local deephouse djs were playing.
I got there at like 12:45am, and the crowd definitely wasn't a typical deephouse peeps, but people were having good time, so it was fun watching people enjoying themselves on the dance floor. It has been way too long since I went out dancing and actually *danced my ass off*, so not sure how I would dance..but as time went by, I became more relaxed and actually started enjoying dancing on the floor. Towards the end of the nite, a girl came up to me asking me to teach her how I dance etc..it was such a sweet compliment, and it always makes me feel kinda flattered whenever people approach me like that at a club (especially straight girls, cause I know that they are not trying to get something off me like some straight horny dudes may do..lol)..so I told her to just feel the music, and imagine how you want to dance with the music and move your body..we dance a little together, and it was very FUN :) I love to dance with people!!
So I was very glad that I got my ass off the bed and went out tonite. :)
I feel very energized after doing something that I feel very passionate about. I decided to keep this in my blog, so that I will try to make time to go out more frequently even I may have to work the next day, cause nothing can beat the power of energizing oneself by doing something so passioate and exciting you know!! :) anyway, hope you all are having great weekend!
tomorrow, I want to do some grocery shopping, cleaning, shopping and writing letters to my family and friends. Peace and love always, Kumi
some may say: "oh, that's something new" LOL
but it's for real that I was working for like 60-70 hrs/week in the past two weeks without normal weekend off. For a person that used to work in the 9-5 office environment, the nature of my work sort of shook me a little at first, cause I had no idea when I would be able to get sometime off even to take care of some personal things, but now it's been over two weeks since I started my job, I got kind of used to it now...
This weekend, luckily, there were no events happening, so I could sleep in a little this morning, and went into work for a meeting with my boss and the executive chef at the restaurant. My boss kindly gave me a lift home, so I went to do some laundry (the laundry machine at my apartment sucks) in my neighborhood, grabbed a piece of pizza for my dinner (meah) and came home deciding whether to go out dancing or not.
Well, it has been way tooooooooo long since I went out for dancing, so I said to myself: "if not tonite, I wouldnot even know when I could go out next", and called up my dancing all nite long buddy and we went out. I thought that John Beltran was in the house tonite, but a phone call from my friend proved me wrong when he said: "I do not think this is the place that we were supposed to be tonite". I was about to leave the place and was having my soho and orange juice as I talked to him, and did a quick research once again. Dang. It was YESTERDAY and not on SATURDAY NITE>>>>> :(((((( I felt so aweful learning that my friend already paid to get inside at this club that was having top british pop of some sort. I offered to pay him back the cost and for the cover to the place that we both agreed to go. So we went out to footwork, where some local deephouse djs were playing.
I got there at like 12:45am, and the crowd definitely wasn't a typical deephouse peeps, but people were having good time, so it was fun watching people enjoying themselves on the dance floor. It has been way too long since I went out dancing and actually *danced my ass off*, so not sure how I would dance..but as time went by, I became more relaxed and actually started enjoying dancing on the floor. Towards the end of the nite, a girl came up to me asking me to teach her how I dance etc..it was such a sweet compliment, and it always makes me feel kinda flattered whenever people approach me like that at a club (especially straight girls, cause I know that they are not trying to get something off me like some straight horny dudes may do..lol)..so I told her to just feel the music, and imagine how you want to dance with the music and move your body..we dance a little together, and it was very FUN :) I love to dance with people!!
So I was very glad that I got my ass off the bed and went out tonite. :)
I feel very energized after doing something that I feel very passionate about. I decided to keep this in my blog, so that I will try to make time to go out more frequently even I may have to work the next day, cause nothing can beat the power of energizing oneself by doing something so passioate and exciting you know!! :) anyway, hope you all are having great weekend!
tomorrow, I want to do some grocery shopping, cleaning, shopping and writing letters to my family and friends. Peace and love always, Kumi
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
