Final Decision

So after spending literally 24 hrs/day in the previous few days (to be exact, until the last minute LOL), I made a decision to reject the job offer that I received for the translator position 2.5 hrs north of Toronto.

I have never had this much of trouble/difficult time making a decision in my life before.
I usually use the comparision of pros and cons strategy wheneve making a decision or simply based on my primal needs, but more and more I thought of things and considered different perspectives, more I got confused.

Last Thursday, I was on the stair masters doing my cardio when my close friend, Tomo came by to my gym for her yoga class. We made an arrangement to see each other after her class at 8:30pm.

We went to a cafe closed to her neighborhood and she kindly listened to all the things that I was finding difficult in my life. She (as usual) gave me insightful comments and advise while we were there, and we left the cafe and went to her place.

We started watching *big size me*, but she handed me a book that caught my full attention.
In this book titled: "The Life you were born to Live-a guide to finding our life purpose", the author, Millman invites readers into the world of The Life Purpose System, a method of life-purpose analysis that is similar to numerology yet more practical, using the time of our birth as the indicator of right livelihood. Millman doesnt stop at discussing the eleven basic life paths or their several variations, but has much to say about the influence of spiritual laws, from flexibility and balance to discipline and perfection.

Anyway, the book pointed out how I tend to make my decision based on money. This also meant my tendency to limit my potential/opportunity because of it too. It's true how I did make my career decisions based on it in the past, simply because I had to take care of my self financially. The recent job opportunity that I gained would definitely put myself free in my finance providing me financial security and materialistic comfort and all, but I realized that as long as I continue making my decision based on such a thing, I can never reach to the ultimate/ideal career goal that I visualize myself to be in future.

So I decided to clarify what I want in my life in the order to start taking small actions to get to where I want to be.

I gotta learn how to count my blessing and be fully appreciative for what is given to me without letting my stress put me down.

Right now, I am chilling in my apartment listening to a great music set by Hali by tuning into the netmusique.com radio station, and am about to write my goals that I want to achieve 6 months from now.

Thanks for reading and your continued support!

Sincerely,

Kumi