Wednesday, July 27, 2005

How generous can you be?

My mind is blown away and I am very speechless after seeing this 100 dollar bill in my wallet after stopping over at the Shopper's Drug Mart a few minutes ago.

So my question is: how generous can you be? to someone you know for less than a month and be 120 % supportive to all you are trying to do in your life?

Here is my story...
I became such close friends with this boy since returning here in Toronto less than a month ago. He is now my roommate and I have been completely speechless realizing how generous and kind-hearted person he is.

-He does not accept any of my money when we go to grocery shopping at China Town/Kensington Market, simply because I have not found a job yet (no source of income), and he does not want to see me getting broke once he departs for his trip to Ukraine to meet his friends and family there.

-Although we made an agreement that I pay half of the 2 bedroom apartment rent as his roommate, he does not accept my money and covers 20 % of my initially agreed rent.

-He just departed for his travel this evening, and I found two cheques in the cabinet: one covering the whole August rent and one covering his rent, leaving it up to me to decide which cheque to use based on my financial situation. He does not ask me how my wallet is doing, but just modestly extends options as this.

-And I realized that he sneakingly left his 100 dollar bill in my wallet, when I went to the shoper's drug mart and opened my wallet for the first time today.

-He is a type of a person who would call his friends to fix my bike without me asking for his help, but purely based on his pure generousity and great consideration to make my life easy.

-I appreciate his friendship and my new friendships with his friends, so I made the Japanese dinner and invited some of his friends over. I realized that I was missing some stuff for the dinner, so asked him to go and get some for me. He left but came back shortly after leaving and asked me to get his paper (or something I do not really recall right now). When I passed the stuff to him, he sort of checked my height and thanked me and left. An hour later, he came back with this huge fresh cut flowers that covered my whole head. I then knew why he checked my height before leaving....

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Especially after gaining PTSD, I find myself asking how much generousity to give to others, simply because I do not want to get hurt by trusting them 100%. But having Ilya who is genuingly so giving and considerate to others make me feel that I can extend my generousity without doubts or suspicious mind, as long as my actions is based on pure consideration, care and love to others (based on my decision, I should be 100 % responsible for my actions).

I feel very special that I have someone like him who can teach me a lot of things in human generousity and true samurai spirit (once he said: "
Real samurais never show their feeling , but actions"). Thank you very very much, Ilya. Although you did not have to do all these, I am very thankful for your great consideration and care. Spasiva Illushe-chika!!




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