Just Hoping for the Best for my Cousin and her family

I have so much in my mind that I do not even know where to start my entry today. One of my relatives had a sudden family emergency lately. It was one peaceful morning on last sunday after a young couple brought their lovely boys to our house for a quick visit. My grandma who was full of smiles seeing the cute boys a moment ago, came to the living room trembling and in a total shock. I tried to calm her down by having her sit down and take a deep breath before telling us what she had to say. She told us a story, which we could not believe immediately. My dad had to call a relative to confirm what exactly happened and received this story that reminded all of us of this incidence that happened over 25 years ago, which separated the live of my beloved little brother and all of us: my cousin's 10 months old baby boy fell off and hit his head badly that he got in a critical status medically. And the baby has clinically became brain dead last nite. But after almost 24 hours later, his heart is still beating, and apparently, he moves his legs when his mom holds his hand.

What sort of mind set do we (I) need to have dealing with this upsetting situation? Can we all have a hope for a miracle to happen so that the brain will revive its life once again? Or is it better to let him go for the family's hopeful future? But if his heart continues beating, what is it that I can do to cheer my cousin?

I have lived my past 24 years having my parents always encouraging me to live a fulfilling life for myself, but also for my beloved little brother, whom we lost due to a sudden accident at our pond when he was over 1 year of age. I was only 3 years old or so when this accident happened. But I vividly remember how much we all loved him. I remember my father choosing him to take a bath with him. Although I was a little jealous, as I never got to spend much time with my busy parents working all the time for the restaurant, I was a very understanding big sister of my little brother, because I also LOVED him very much. I have this single photo of my brother and myself where my brother is checking up on my knee like a doctor while myself laying down and giggling beside him. That is the only photo of him and myself. Even from the photo, I can tell how much we felt blessed to have him in our family. Then one day, a sudden accident happened. I can still recall how devastatingly we all cried with immense sadness. The pain is still there within all of us. And now that I am at a stage of life where it is not strange to be a parent (based on my age though), it puts me in a deep sadness when I imagine how exactly the accident happened over 25 years ago, and how my parents react to such horrible news.

Now that a similar accident, which I desire NO ONE in the whole world to experience is happening to my own cousin, I really do not know what to say to her, and feel very powerless, unable to bring a sense of comfort or hope that she needs. Deep inside, I want to cry out very hard. Cry out for the sadness that my relatives are experiencing. Cry out for the accident that happened to my parents over 25 years ago. and Cry out for all the sadness that we may experience even from now, because of an accidence like this happening in our lives. But here I am emotionally feeling handicapped and unable to let go of my emotions, because I feel that the sadness that my cousin or my parents experienced must be something that is unexplanable to a person who have not become a parent yet. My cousin and her family must be going through the most difficult situation right now. They must be hanging on in this given struggle. I want to hold my tears until I can unite with my cousin, although the meeting with her may not be the most happy consequence to this story. I hope that my cousin and her family will find a way to feel positive about their lives, no matter how difficult this situation must be for them. Ganbatte!!!!!!