Restored Love and Passion for my Life- I have no fear any more

Words can not describe how deep sense of fear and darkness haunted my internal self for the past 6 months after a life threatening experience put me off at the edge of cliff. I did not fall off the cliff completely, because look, I am still alive, but I experienced one of the most painful and struggling phase of life learning how to live my life passionately again.

Now I am returned here in the city of Toronto, uniting with my dear friends and meeting such wonderful souls, I feel very blessed to have everything in my life right now.

Last nite while working out at the gym, this thought just popped into my mind: "I have experienced and lived in the hell for the past 6 months collecting missed sense of personal identity, and now that I feel I have restored my passion and love for my life, I have no fear to stride forward to fight what I feel I deserve in my life, and I do not let anyone violate or control my life in a negative manner anymore, because I have the full ownership for my freedom and life".

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I feel absolutely wonderful realizing that I have finally come back to this mental stage once again in my life. Yes, I did it, and I feel as though I have the full control over my life and am able to explore my opportunities in my life here in Toronto.

One of my favorite songs that reflect much of my current self is this one: "Golden" by Jill Scott, and I would like to leave my entry with its lyric for you all to enjoy :)

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Golden by Jill Scott

I'm taking my freedom,
Pulling it off the shelf,
Putting it on my chain,
Wear it around my neck,
I'm taking my freedom,
Putting it in my car,
Wherever I choose to go,
It will take me far,

[Chorus]
I'm livin' my life like it's golden
Livin' my life like it's golden, X3
Livin' my life like it's golden, golden,
Livin' my life like it's golden, X4
Livin' my life like it's golden, golden,

[Verse 2]
I'm taking my own freedom
Putting it in my song,
Singing loud and strong,
Grooving all day long,
I'm taking my freedom,
Putting it in my stroll,
I'll be high-steppin' y'all,
Letting the joy unfold,

[Chorus]

I'm holding on to my freedom,
Can't take it from me,
I was born into it,
It comes naturally,
I'm strumming my own freedom,
Playing the god in me,
Representing his glory,
Hope he's proud of me,

[Chorus]

[Bridge]
I'm living my life like its golden, golden, golden, golden, golden, golden, [X2]

[Chorus]

[Jill Scott:]
Livin' my life like it's golden,
It really matters to me, Ohhh