one week has gone by

So many things happened in the past week.
My great friend, Ange departed for her study in Sweden.
I got high fever the next day and slept in bed all day while nasty rain flooded some sections of T-dot causing some headache for people living in the basement.
I attended a couple job interviews for a position that my agent encouraged me to apply for.
Then I got my fever back again with really bad caugh making me stuck in bed for another day again.
I got a couple calls from two agencies for job opportunities here in Toronto, but out of my preference.
And I went for a job interview for a Japanese translator position 2.5 hrs north of Toronto today.

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It seems my cold is now gone, but I continue to search for a great career opportunity here in Toronto.

I always wanted to be true to myself and stick with what I felt I deserved, but I am starting to question the degree of my desires now. Because I can not just stay unemployed and continue looking for something that I want without working for so long, you know??

Based on the job offers that come on my way, I am starting to wonder maybe I am meant to work as a translator, although I continue to have more enthusiasm working for a marketing/creative industry as an admin coordinator. I also wonder: is it my faith that puts me in a situation to move to places that I ideally do not want to be???

In my past 10 years, I do not even know how many times I moved (relocating for job offers and most of the time I had no other choice but accept things happening in my life).

Because of my past moves, I feel that I deserve to settle in a place that I like (Toronto) and establish my career where I can devote my passion and energy for at least a few good years.
But I struggle to find a good opportunity in the city and most of the opportunities that are given to me are outside of Toronto, as if I must move from here...again.

I question: what is my faith?
Is it my destiny to move so many times?
Or do I deserve to stick to what my heart (my desire) tells me and continue making the effort until I turn my dreams come true???

Here are some reasons why I want to stay in Toronto:
-I want to get some dance lessons and become a better dancer.
-I love deephouse music and I want to stay in an environment where I can go and hear some live performance where I can gain some raw inspiration for me to manifest my own passion for life too!
-I love kensington market and china town where I can buy some fresh produce for cheap!!!! and I love the idea of spending my money for independent companies (instead of supporting coorporated grocery industry).
-I want to become a part of our Toronto community.
I am interested in doing some volunteer work for the Japanese Canadian community here in Toronto. I want to be able to do some volunteer work!!! (convenient toronto public transportation allows me to travel to places)
--my friends live here. my friends-my own support system-my family :)

but people say that you need to drop all you desire for something that you need sometime in one's life.

Is my thoughts/desires unhealthy? does it limit my ability to accept things happen in my life?
Are they consider as some materialistic thoughts that I need to detach myself?
Do I need to free myself and be able to accept things that are offered to me as gifts??

I continue to wonder as I continue to fight for what I want in my life..

Peace :)